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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

how loong can one listen 2 the same song again n again??i have been doin dis since afternoon...i shud say the song is gud...n it starts wid a guitar composition...which made the song more romantic for me..earlier,.if smbody wud have serenaded me wid a guitar,i wud have definitely fallen 4 him..:D..it was my ultimate fantasy... lolz......now my fascination for the guitarist has gone...bt my fascination 4 the guitar still remains...:)


my artistic inclinations....

well..i have graduated finally frm doodling to pencil drawing....:)



the first creation in my new sketch..no drawing book..thts the apt name...



2nd one...thanx 2 the scaneer the top portions been cut out of frame...its kinda headless...n too bright...



yup..its my fantasy..plannin 2 learn it...i feel guys wid the guitar r most romantic...:)...




my veilded lady.....



the prince n his princess.....my last sketch in the book....a temperory end to my misadventures wid the pencil.........

Thursday, March 26, 2009

2days been hectic n tiring....tirin bcoz of the unexpected almost 8-10 km walk i had to take jus b4 attendin an interview...yup...another inteerview...anodar job on the horizon.....bt most probably tht job too will fade away in the oblivion..nopes...dis is nt a disheartened statement,..i got the job....bt.whether i 'll join or not...only time will tell...decisions n more decisions...




the mind of mine..always wishes to b near 2 her husband..even whn the brain logically digs up odar reasons...well n now dis mind n brain thing has put my job again at stake...well i guess finally my mind will win over...as it did an yr earlier...which made me throw away my m.tech studies to the wind n follow my mind which eventually followed my husband to the beautiful valleys of kashmir....n my life statement changed to




i followed my heart n well tht was kinda dreamlike...bt now i m nt in tht dream..this scorchin heat n the huge mosquiotes, which have developed resistance 2 everything keeps on remindin me painfully tht i m here...in gods own country.....away frm my better& smtimes bitter(bt most of the times sugar n spice n eveything nice) half,where i m destined to spent mayb anodar 2 months...

i m nt bein ironic or sarcastic...i kno i had spent my whole life out here..bt as they say..home is where the heart is...n my heart isnt wid me now...my heart,havin a mind of its own(confusin rite?)..chose to follow my husband....frm the green lush kerala...to the hills of bagdogra....n so i m sittin here rather hearltess...the articulation is very bad i kno...bt it applies 2 the above sayin n my condition now...



comin bac to today....

enterin technopark where i had the interview, reminded me of a frnd who worked there or probably still worked there...i know this person for abt 3 years......bt never once have i seen him or talked to him......didnt have his no...so cudnt contact him...n as luck wud have it,i met him online 2day..hes still there...n he was jus near 2 my buildin...so near..yet cudnt meet him...jus a long-lasting orkut frndship...i guess thts wht it 'll remain thruout....somethings r never meant 2 b...

some things r never meant 2 b,,,this was my fave quotin until sm time bac...4 each n every situation where i cudnt find a logical answer this quote saved me...n there was a time at which i cudnt finad logical answers for many things...leave alone logical..i cudnt find illogical answers even...such was my confused state of mind...when i used to pray sincerely for some divine intervention...n now i kno god exisits n true prayers r answerd....



god exisits in many forms...n to me it exisits in the form of a small ma...in ochre coloured clothes..with hair which many tease as afro-asian hairstyle...hes my god...hes my friend...hes everything to me...my gudidn light n the most important influence in my life...



dis is my personal experience...mayb many of u wnt agree wid dis thought of mine..well..its my blog n my thought.....

speakin of influences in my life..there is orkut.yup...dis social n/w site practically made my life...it broke n made my relations...it pavedway 2 my marig...n it help me find my job n careere too...i owe a lot to orkut i guess..:)

yup..i wudnt have been here now...if it wasnt 4 orkut...i wud hav been anodar being..codin n decodin all day n all nite...well theres nothin wrong wid tht...as loong as u r genuinely interested...n in my case my genuine interest for a s/w job was,is n will always remain zero....:)



this uninterest made me lose a paper in my 3rd sem...my first n only academic failure in my whole life...which inturn made me more n more averse to the subject...passin out of the engg coleg durin the s/w boom was nothin 2 b tht desired of (2 me)....thnk goodness i had odar options expect codin n decodin...

gotta stop writin now...i kno its an abrupt end...bt the hectic day is finally startin 2 take its toll on me...i need to get some shut eye...




gdnt folks...ciao...

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

decisions decisions n more decisions...n tht too life changing ones...my platter is full of thm now...one of the cons of being an adult...smtimes i wish i was a child again...bt thn i remember i wanted 2 be a grown up those days...wht they say is true...the grass is always greener on the other side...
one of my frnds who read my last post found it immature...well cotton candy,groundnuts n the sea will b a gr8 combination 4 me...no matter how old i get..[:D]

Monday, March 16, 2009


visited the beach 2day after a pretty loong time...had an urge 2 c the beach...didnt wet my feet though...the sea was kinda violent...with huge waves roarin n splashin in the shore...jus like an uncalm n fuzzy mind...unable 2 make any decisions..jus wantin 2 let go...bt forcibly tied down....the comparision is very appropriate i guess..
it was very crowded 2day...given the fact tht it was a sunday,u cud hav xpected dis rush....saw many ppl stare at the beach in wonder...with awe...jus like i did whn i saw snow for the first time...first timers @ the beach, i made out....a wonder for thm..kinda a part of life for us ppl who were born n brought up ovr here....
i like the beach ...nt jus bcoz of the sea...bt for the floss candy n groundnuts u get ovr there...didnt miss thm 2day also...my visit 2 the beach 'll b incomplete widout thm......

Saturday, March 14, 2009

sleep evadin me 2day....my days @ home r goin by pretty fast..travellin daily 2 one place or another...its bcome my daily routine...well i like to travel n a lottt....mayb sensin my liking 2wards travel god gave me such a life wherein i will b travellin thruout...if u ask me where i would like to visit...i wud say its switzerland....sorta my dream destination....the snow capped mountains were always my fantasy...seen snow 2 my hearts content...still...i wud like 2 c more...more n more....i wonder whn i will c snow again.....alaska will also b okay 4 me...came 2 love it after watchin 2 movies...snuggling up the fireside with a warm cup of coffee in my hands n watchin the snowfall outside my window......tht 'll b perfect relaxation 4 me......whtever guys...the majestic look of the snow capped hills is a sight u 'll cherish thruout u life....the spirit n feel of christmas n the purity of the white snow..r two things which will give me joy always....now n 4ever....n i miss the snow bac @ j n k...sob...:(

summer rains....

thts the best part of summer in kerala...the unxpected rains...in all its strength...givin life 2 everything...n joy 2 many hearts.....n 4 me its nostalgic....cin the rainfall thru my window...hearin the plitter platter of raindrops ,the roarin of the thunder n the fresh smell of soil.....m really happy now!!!

my musings:today

mother nature must have taken pity on us poor souls sufferin frm the summer heat....a rain to cool down the hot earth...thts wht was in store for us today..it was a well welcomed relief frm the scorching heat....cnt predict anything...ths is bcomin the way of life..jus like hte odar day...heard of the unexpected death of a frnd...well the fact hasnt sunk in2 my brains till now...mayb it will take its own time...4getfullness comes handy smtimes...odarwise i guess life wnt move on....

well...one more month left of my leave ...after tht to anodar station....life will follow dis pattern every 3 yrs..until n unless the force kicks us out or we jump out...the second one being practically impossible....:D...the main advantage of dis life...u can get 2 c places which normally u will never get 2 c...like me for instance i travelled frm trivandrum(almost the southern end)....to kashmir....which odarwise i had a very low chance of visitin....n my memories of tht place...jus amazin.....the bad part ...no permanant frnds...no loong lasting frndships...by the time u get used to the ppl n place..u 'll hav 2 say gudbye...thts kinda bitter...bt cnt help it....its the way of life on tht side...shud get used to it sooner or later....

came upon a journal durin my shoppin yesterday...a very elegant journal...thought of buyin it...writin down journal entries daily...bt thn thought ...y shud i ..whn i have my blog wid me...my blog seriously has taken the place of my diary which i used to write regularly until an yrr bac...whtever..love writin my blog...as sm1 said no unnecessary pain of thinkin of methods of deletin unwanted entries.....:D...Got a plan of makin the blog entries in2 a book every yr...of course jus a book for personal keepin...:)...guess it will b fun goin through the old entries...can do it wid the net also...bt still i feel a book always has its charm which nothin cud ever replace....gotta wait till dec 2009 for implementation of my plan....

n yeah...speakin of books...after a loong search n wait...i finally got my butterchicken in ludhiana..nopes..i havent been cravin for eatin butter chicken in ludhiana...its a book by pankaj mishra which was evadin me from i guess 2005...finally after 4 loong loong yrs...got a copy of my own...felt really good....


another new addition to my shoppin cart was a set of oil colours,brushes n all the necessary accessories...no...i didnt start paintin...all for my hubby's latest n renewed interest in painting...well he did paint 2 pics...n i shud say..thy turned outta b pretty good...for an amateur...

hopefully will post the paintings tommorow...

gona hit the sacks now...cnt stand the mosquito bites...mosquitoes..n big ones too...resistant to all methods devised 2 kill thm...if sm1 comes up wid a new idea to get rid of thm...plz do let me kno...:)...wht all one has 2 fight 2 get a night's peaceful sleep...:D...

Friday, March 13, 2009

birthday celebs...

went for amma's birthday shopping yesterday....weell it was all suddenly planned ...a totally private affair....wid my dad missing...well call of duty.....thts wht made my father unavailable @ the party....the cake was superb...me being eatin it day in day out widout minding the calories tht r piling in.....



even my doggie achu...he cudn't stay away frm the celebs...he even obliged to wear the hat...well nethin 4 a piece of cake...thts achu's motto...



cute na..we all had a gala of a time...wishin more n more birthdays like dis 4 my dearst mom.....

Monday, March 9, 2009

HAPPY WOMAN'S DAY!!!



well...march 08...anodar woman's day come n gone...who all gained smthiN n who all lost smthing.....dnt kno...today was a busy day 4 me...no spl woman's day celebs..nobody 2 wish me happy woman's day...even i 4got it was woman's day!!!!!Add Video

well..comin 2 speak of it...i dnt need a spl day to celebrate the fact tht i m a woman...i dnt need a spl day to feel tht i m a lady....i dnt need a spl day 2 b told tht i m smone whos looked upon by ppl....bcoz i kno...being born as a lady..a woman itself...is the greatest gift god can ever give me....

and as we celebrate dis woman's day...i wud like to thank two ppl...who r not "woman"...for makin my day always n brightening my life.....

my father......no one can ever match him...no one can ever compare 2 him...i love him more than anybody else in the world...i love him for treatin me as an individual...for not holdin me bac in my ambitions.....for treatin me as his most precious gift frm god....for makin me feel special..for making me feel how worthy is it to be born a daughter of such a father...i love u my dear father...for letting me be me...n always being there wid me...u r the best gift god has ever given me......

my husband...zero percent egoisitc and zero percent a mcp...mayb bcoz of his upbringing...mayb bcoz of the way he is...whtever..i love u 4 the way u r...n i love u for the way u love me...i love u the way u treat me as ur frnd n not as a second citizen..i love u for ur patience..the way ur put up wid my tantrums...i love u for the way u sobered me down...stabilized my thoughts n feelings n showed me wht life really.. is.... n i love u 4 loving me the way u do...:)....like no one else can do in dis whole world...

my 2 spl men....

cheers 2 u both...u guys rock..n in dis woman's day..i would like to dedicate.....
me.....
my being...
my existence to u guys from the other gender...who made me wht i really am...4 making me complete....

u guys r the best...n i 'll love u 4ever n ever...!!!!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

i appreciate good music ....language no bar...it should touch the strings of my heart....came upon 2 tamil songs yesterday...coudn't understand the lyrics completely....bt being hearin tht frm tht time till dis moment whn i 'm pennin down dis....feels like thers magic in those songs......cnt stop listenin 2 thm...its nothin new 4 me..durin my engineerin days,whn i was in the hostel...i used to roam abt always wid a walkman set....music whn i was sleeping,eating,doing nothing...n even whn i was doin my assignments...cudnt think of studyin mathematics widout music...the two Ms...maths n muic used to go together 4 me.....time went on ...i graduated frm walkmns to cd players to my mobile n ipods...the medium changed...bt music was always there...it made me laugh n cry....at one pt it helped sm1 2 seduce me...n my...how i fell 4 him..:D... now music has bcom a way of my life...n i m sure it 'll always remain......

today.......

got up early ...well nt tht early,bt early goin by my usual standards...had sm wine yesterday...actually didnt intend 2 have wine...was searchin my fridge 4 smthin whn i saw this....came to kno tht it was a christmas gift which was still been unused....wht harm can some wine do 2 me??these were my thoughts as i gobbled down the wine...bt intoxication is smthin tht makes u do things which u never thought of doin or sayin.;...caught on by the taste i gobbled up a bit ..a bit ...n a bit more of the wine...didnt kno it was tht strong...got up wid a topsy turvy stomach n head..wht all and wht not....neways it was a not so desirable start 2 the day...i should have known it was an indication of the storm of events i have 2 face shortly...n the day turned out 2 b a mixture of emotional upheavels n turmoils...went thru many emotional debates...n finally i concluded...generation gap is smthing which cnt b brigded...whtever said or done,the gap 'll always remain.....bt wid evening peace settled in...n i went 4 sm shoppin...well shoppin cheers me up always...dis time also it didnt fail 2 cast its spell on me...n i returned home wid a bag full of goodies and as a happy indiviual...happy nt only coz of the shoppin bt bcoz of the fact tht i met an old frnd frm coleg 2day...nowadays nethin abt my coleg helps in puttin a smile 2 my face.....a happy endin 2 not a happy start of a day....!tht was today 4 me......

n destination tomorrow:library...

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

movie downloading spree continues...jus 2 more days left...maximum results in the minimum tine...thts my aim...:)..the same applies 2 my shopping spree also...:D.....

Monday, March 2, 2009

i m njoyin my vacations to the maxim...bt the burden of my leave is been carried by my poor computer which is forced 2 be switched on 24x7,thanks 2 the fact tht i 'm in2 a movie downloading spree..language no bar...subtitiles will do for me...i 'm nt sparin nething....lime wire n u torrent have bcome my best frnds now...:)
got dis one word thing from narayan's blog...thanx 2 him i wnt b jinxed with the writer's block curse at the begining of the month..:D

Where is your mobile phone?
bed

Describe your girlfriend:
none!!!

Your hair:
coloured

Your mother:
anxious

Your father:
smart

What is your favourite gadget?
headphones

What did you dream last night?
4got..

What do you prefer to drink?

pepsi

Dream car?
mercedes

What room are you currently in?
bedroom

Your ex?
truthful

Your biggest fear?
losing

What do you want to be in 10 years?
same

Who did you spend last night with?
alone

What are you not?
dark

The last thing you did?
eat

What are you wearing?
pyjamas

Favorite book?
archies

The last thing you ate?
noodles

Your life?
unpredictable

Your mood?
pensive

Your best friends?
asleep

What are you thinking about right now?
water

Your car?
new

What are you doing right now?
typing

Your Summer?
horrible

Marital status?
married

What is on your TV right now?
nothing

When did you last laugh?
today

When did you last cry?
4got

School?
memorable

i seem 2 have writers block...nt able 2 pen down anything...leave alone wrtin ..even my thoughts 2day seem foggy n blurred...wht a gr8 way to start a blogging month...god save me!!!