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Wednesday, January 28, 2009

kinda went over the top wid my blog yesterday..bt dnt feel like deletin it..u smtimes need 2 have 'stuff' llike dis to remind u tht u can get to think all these ways... i was intoxicated by the overdose of some movies...which elated my state of mind 2 tht levels,which in turn caused me 2 pen down all this...bt really...i felt gr8 n was very much at peace wid myself yest nite...really strange r the ways of the mind...especially mine!!!!

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

m kinda flying high today...NO,guys i m nt drunk...n if i were..i wud have been loong asleep by now...:D...
this state of mind combined wid gr8 music...thts wht makes life perfect 4 me...
well i guess,i get in2 my skin n be my real self whn i 'm like dis...feeling free..
currently i feel good...feel like i 'm standing smwhere alone,.....feels like i 'm spreadin my hands...closin my eyes...feeling the wind in my hair...the rain in my skin...or the feel of snow on my feet...jus being at peace wid myself....n happiness flowing frm widin...
a time whn u dnt kno anybody n anything...jus u n the nature...
a time whn u feel like u never wana open ur eyes,for the fear tht this feeling may pass on...
its the kind of feeling i get whn i pray in a cathedral...lightin a candle...jus me n god...n the sound of silence...
its the kind of feeling which takes me bac to a time...which i dnt kno for sure is whn...bt tht was a time whn i was waiting n longing for a lost traveller...who never came back..
its tht kind of feelin,which gives me the happiness...like whn i feel the first drops of rain on my skin....
its tht kind of a feeling i always have whn i dream of walking on tht long street,covered wid brown leaves on an autumn mornin,....
its tht kind of feeling i had,whn i woke up one morning to mountains covered in snow...
its tht kind of feelin u have...whn ur heart overflows....for a reason unknown....
nothin in my mind........nothin of this grouchy ,sarcastic,materialistic n "bloody" world....jus me,nature...the wind...n a feeling much above happiness....
its a time whn u feel close to the nature....whn u get the feeling of the five elements in your body...
its the feeling which makes me float up,up n above...
its tht time whn i feel...i have melted n m a freely flowin river.....
its one of those times whn happiness really comes from the depths and depths of your heart,n end up as a smile in your face...
its tht time whn u hear all the melodies of the nature.....a feeling much above self content...a feeling which makes u go on and on...
its whn u fell ur true existence....the presence of ur soul within....the futility of ur body...
its whn i fell like going in search of my very essence...my essence of existence...
in search of tht which u have been searching throughout ur life...tht which u always wanted in ur life...
tht which u can hear in all the melodies of music...
tht which u can always feel in the strings of ur heart...
tht which u always see in the light of the lamp in the darkest of darkest nights..
tht which makes u fight n live eachh day...
tht which pushes u forward always...
tht which is pure,serene and unexpalinable...
tht which nobody else can claim upon...
tht which is only urs...
bt 'tht' which is still a mystery for me...
until dis very moment...................
live n let live !!this is truly the motto of my life....i m nt the kind who puts my nose in2 odars business ...n i dnt want neone to meddle in my affairs...well...u cnt control the instincts of odar ppl right..well these meddly insticts of sm losers provokes me...it ignites my fuse n i go kaboom...n i get truly bitchy if u provoke me...

my fuse went kaboom sm time back....whn this particular wise guy..who as far as i kno is making a career out of swatting flies n mosquitoes ,tried to wisen me up n cracked a wise comment ..well,u kno wht?i got wisened up...bt nt in a way he thought...n i gave him a big ,nasty piece of my mind....havent heard frm him after tht...n i wish i never hear frm him again... may his nosey,meddly brain rest in pieces!!!

Monday, January 26, 2009

my dear diary..............

i used 2 write diaries...right frm i guess whn i was 13-14....i got in2 dis habit by reading archie comics...nt xcatly archie,bt betty's diaries...initially i used 2 start my diary entries jus like betty's..."my dear diary"....well i might have copied tht frm betty,bt as time passed by,my diary became my most dear and near friend....my diary was with me thruout.....whn i laughed..whn i cried...she saw the confused teenager in me..saw the rebellious n violent streak in me...saw the blossoming and wilting of my crushes...my diary knew me in and out...jus like my alter ego....

now...sitting miles away frm my diary,i really miss her......i really miss going through the pages of my old entries...hope my diaries r safely stacked in my cupboard bac hom,where i had left thm...:)
the weather outside continues 2 b cloudy n moody...bt inside me the weather has changed completley...my husband is bac..after a week...which seemed more like an eternity....

now i m happy n back on the roll again.....

i guess u need these periods in life...which make u overlook those silly probs we create n make us realize how precious r those small moments in life which give us happiness n which make our life truly meaningful and wonderful...

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

now its PREZ OBAMA......



As they said,it was obama's date with history ......THE OBAMA ERA HAS BEGUN........In the president's own words..."a new era of responsibility has begun"...

Monday, January 19, 2009

well...it snowed again...mother nature is soo unpredictable.....when u think its all over..it starts off once again...

i always wanted 2 b in a land of snow...kind of a childhood fantasy...never had a thing for beaches...bt always liked cool,chilly and misty places...where u can snuggle up in frnt of ur fire place,njoyin the warmth of the fire...well..i dnt have a fireplace,bt the electric heater i have is a worthy substitute....

winter and cold reminds me of christmas,my favourite season of the year...its gona b a month since christmas...bt the spirit n joy of xmas fails 2 leave me...even now,sitting in my fortress of solitude...i feel happy thinking abt xmas ,snow n santa....

mayb bcoz the season is a season of hope...hope tht smthin good will happen....mayb this hope is wht binds me 2 tht season...

n my fetish towards cold,snowy places...well its still a mystery.....

day 3 in my fortress of solitude....6 more days to go....what they say is really true....

distance does make the heart grow fonder n the days grow longer.....

Saturday, January 17, 2009

we decided neve 2 name our future pet pogo again...i guess bcoz of the name the pups leave us soon..u may ask wht is in a name...i 'll tell u...

POGO=PO+GO

PO in my mothertounge malayalam means GO
n GO means GO

the name itself has double go s..n the pups wid dis name go away frm us sooner than they come to us...

so henceforth in the future no pogo....our future pups will be known by the name

"BOOMERANG"....

yes..u throw it away ,still it returns 2 u....

This was the brainstorm i got today mornin at 4....

n now we r waiting 4 our boomerang...:)


this was my motto for the day...it was worse n more sluggish thn i expected..

didnt xercise..except 4 the weights 2 make my shoulders strong.....did the weights bcoz there was no necessity 2 get outta the bed..was in my bedroom whole day..sleeping,eating n watchin tv...

this was the laziest day in my life i could ever remember....

Thursday, January 15, 2009

a looong boring week lies in front of me...n i m nt sure wht to do!!!!!well i guess my timetable 'll b smthin likd dis for the comin week...

1.wake up btw 7-8 whn the milkman comes...
2.go to sleep
3.wake up around 8.30 whn my maid comes.
4.go to sleep
5.wake up around 10,11 or 12(depends on the frequency of interventions i face to my sleep)
6.have something probably junk food to fill up my stomach
7.in frnt of the computer,doing my write up assignments i have or simply surfing the net...
8.wait for my immensly brilliant and hardworking student who makes it a point never to come on time...(anywhere between 4-5)
9.see him off,take bath..do evening puja...watch my daily share of tv....have sm food...again in frn of the computer..thn finally hit the sacks...this can b anytime btw 11-1 or 2

well guys..lets wait n see if my immensly borin schedule faces any changes......

oops sorry...in btw i will do exercise,go for walk n visit a neighbour each day............

thts my plan as of now,for the period frm 17-01-09 to 25-01-09
the cramps in my legs forbid me to do squats....bt i have resolved...come what may,i will not break my exercise routine...frm tomorrow onwards...speakin of that...all my new year resolutions r broken...i guess i should stop takin resolutions...y to take thm to simply break thm???
hi folks...bac frm a b'day party...its kinda chilly now...n mayb it might rain also...i feel its pretty cold out here...bt the natives n ppl who r here for years say,"no...winters r late"...temperature went below 3 n it snowed once in the mountains encirclin us...still they say winter is late...i wonder...wht 'll make thm say...yup,finally,,,winter is here!!!!!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Yesterday was depression day…depression due to the fact tht pogo had left…well I didn’t wana give him…bt circumstances only forced me to give him away..smtimes I hate dis setup…where u cant even keep a pet,due 2 the fact tht u r supposed 2 relocate once in every 3yrs…guess some things r never meant to be….now whs left of pogo are his memories,his pics n his feeding bottle….

I started workin out so that it will keep my mind away frm these thoughts…As a result of which I feel partially crippled today…takin squats after a period of 3 months has taken a heavy toll on my legs…to top it all, my one eye has bcome small n red frm yesterday…now its better…bt it kinda shows at times…

Apart from these two hurdles ,I am fit and fine…physically…emotionally I fell smwht drained..well this is just a repeat telecast of what had happened one month ago,when we gave away pogo-I…

I guess I will move along as time passes…as thts the way of life..

Sunday, January 11, 2009

QUIT SMOKING!!!


social drinkin is okay wid me...as loong as it doent affect the ppl standin near the person wid the glass in his/her hands...bt wht abt smoking...the hell,u go n smoke...bt y to suffocate ppl standing near u??we dnt want 2 b passive smokers.....its correctly defined...

cigar:a stick wid fire at one end and a fool at the other end....

i 'm nt goin in2 the pros n cons of smokin....its a story been told 4 ages....so plz u guys n gals at the other end of the stick....plz make the air breathable n the world a better place for us 2 live in......


PS:blog inspired by agitation and frustration caused due to excessive intake of cigar smoke sent out by person unconscious n least bothered of his surroundings at a public function.
we found pogo a home..pogo has got a permanant home n ppl 2 care 4 him now...n the best part is he lives in the camp so tht,u can get 2 see him whn u want..n no fear tht he 'll b runover again....now i think we were jus a mediator btw pogo n his new owners...whtever pogo is happy,we r happy tht he found a good home..n of course they r also happy..thank u god....

Saturday, January 10, 2009

its a quiet saturday nite,n i m in my senses..with sleep failin to come...i m tendin 2 get nostalgic...nostalgia is nt always good 4 me..it can sometimes get bitter...so bitter tht i cud say a memory loss cud have been handy smtimes....smtimes i feel god if only things went my way,they say..the best thing abt life is tht it takes a turn at right angles so that whn u look back u cant see ur past...i think it is pure crap...atleast 4 me...

wht m i talking...i guess i m gettin damn depressed....mayb bcoz of pogo...he might have 2 leave anyday..i wish i cud keep him...bt i cannot...again i end up asking,




Cn someone tell me the answer??who can,whn even god cant?

Gona hit the sacks...coz a severe headache has hit me...hope tomorrow brings smthing good...ciao folks

Friday, January 9, 2009

ME TODAY:




HAPPY!!!

POGO THE SECOND...

dogs finad a way 2 our home somehow...got a pup 2day who tried to kill himself by runnin under our car...he looks like a teddybear...have named him pogo..in memory of the pogo we had once....








dnt kno how long he 'll b wid us...if we find his mom,thn hes bac 2 her again..till thn,he 'll reign as the king of our kingdom...

COOKING IS NO ROCKET SCIENCE.....

Dis is somethin I learnt thru my xperience….all 23 yrs of my life…I have never tried my hand at dis art,except for the occasional chocolate fudge,I used 2 make…truth is I was interested in eating than cooking…n never did the need arise 4 me 2 enter the kitchen,as there was always sm1 to cater 2 it….


OH!my GOD...U DNT KNO COOKIN??THIS WAS A COMMON COMMENT BY A PARTICULAR GENERE OF PEOPLE AFTER MY MARIG...as if i had did my engineering in home sciences.....controlled my temper,smiled at everyone at replied back.."NOBODY IS A BORN COOK,MY DARLINGS"....

But…as u might have guessed,I was totally cluless in the first day,at my very own kitchen…with noone to help…a whole kitchen 2 my own…xcept for a few recipe books which I had got frm my mother,there was noone or nothing 2 guide me…..

And as expected my first day outputs were a complete disaster,inspite of the online cookin g classes i got thru the phn...(except for the properly cooked rice),an over salty bhindi,and a rasam which was way too hoottt…..well…theres always omletes 2 depend upon….my poor husband…he might have had an iron cast stomach ,to survive my cookin xperiments…

They say failure is ur stepping stone 2 success…after struggling for smtime wid the recipes,finally I emerged victorious,really I felt like I had won a war,against all those people who thought i would starve my husband to death.....…i was correct,nobody is a born cook...necessity is the mother of all inventions as well as the mother of all cooks...

They say behind every successful man is a woman,,I say behind every successful wife at kitchen,there ‘ll b an encouraging n supporting husband,ready 2 eat whtev er u cook..n EVERREADY 2 cook,if u r tired......:D

OF BABIES,SOOTHNERS,DIAPERS AND THE LIKES......

I love babies….as long as they are not mine….believe me,I don’t have nething against babies…bt cnt think of having a personal one…:D…

I m gona complete one yr of my marriage life dis feb…nothing bad in tht,..sucucessfully gona complete one yr..bt now I dread the thought of goin bac home,where I have 2 face the question inevitable…BABIES???

Sometimes I feel….all these people married jus to join the cause of propagating the human species…well in any case my thoughts are different…I dnt wish 2 add to the ever increasing population of our planet currently….and as they say,I dnt think my life is incomplete without havin a baby…actually I guess,no I feel,I am leading a perfect n happy life now….no tensions ,no burdens……no getting up at unearthly hours,no compromising my sleep,no changing those smelly diapers,no tension of getting fat,no missin parties n all the fun n entertainment of my life,which I have right now..n which I m unwilling 2 compropmise

4 anything…

No guys…I ‘m nt being selfish,bt I ‘m no mother India either….i ‘m nt 4 getting tht even I was a baby once,who used 2 give my parents sleepless nites…..its jus tht ,well…I wana live like dis 4 sm more time…mayb these r the musigs of my immature mind…n me being me,I dnt kno whn my thoughts n ideologies are gona change…….

And 4 all those mothers n nothers 2 b around to globe,my salutations….i fell u ppl are the most unselfish n sacrificing guys,sorry gals.:D in the whole world…CHEERS 2 U FOLKS!!!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Vodka…or the absolute sin,as quoted by smbody…well..even I thought so some time bac…bt now I guess it a’int such a big sin…it a’int a small sin either…in shorter it a’int no sin..:D….well it is a distilled beverage containin mostly of water n purified ethanol…basically made frm grain..now tell me.how can a drink made frm water n grain,smthin always present in our daily diet bcome smthing soo unpure..…is drinkin water,injurious????non-veggies smtimes stay away frm vodka…vodka,which is pure veg…I guess havin non-veg is a greater sin thn havin vodka,well goin by the books..:D…..

Well,these are jus my personal thoughts abt vodka…

I am not promoting alcoholism….

I’m nt promotin compulsive and regular drinkin…..

anythin in excess is injurious…vodka in excess is also injurious…well in tht case, even chocolates in excess r also injurious….

My words for you are,be wise…drink wise….n live safe……

Tata folks…..

PS:the above article is jus a tribute 2 vodka…nothing against u folks who r out there fightin a war against alcoholism…even I join the cause of war against excessive drinking….:)

to vodka or not to vodka????



to b continued.............:D

me:now....



feeling blue......

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

"Govt announces Rs.3 crore for the olympic gold medal winner...the same govt announces Rs.5 lakh for the family of security personnel who died fighting terror in our country...our country is truly great...isn't it??".....

This is a sms i got yesterday....well its nothing new...the same old story...its sarcastic,bt the sports person 'll always b remembered in our history....I 'm not against promotion of sports in a country,where a gold medal comes once in 2 blue moons....bt seriously how does a personal 'gift' of rs. 3 crore help in promoting sports in our country??wht abt the hundreds n thousands who r fightin against many adverse conditions 2 protect the scared borders of our motherland,so that the rest of us can be safe n sound under a well protected roof??when will they get their well deserved due?how long will a hemant karkare, or a vijay salskar be remembered??guess,the saga of unsung heroes will never be over...

gdmorning guys...

m back to my blogging self again...no i didnt find the pendrive...well i have stopped looking 4 it...guess it 'll come bac 2 me one day,as thts the way things usually go with me...well my maid is goin around wid her mornin duties...n m here tryin to download some movies frm torrent ,which we have been trying to do since yesterday,since the torrent software cant find ne seeds or peers...well,limeware n warez worked better 4 me...limeware reminds me of our old system administrator bac home,who used to uninstall the s/w no sooner than we had downloaded it n give us a loooong ,absolutely boring lecture abt our downloads n the pros n cons of it....me n my sis thought he belonged to the pre-historic era...well... nt thought,we still think soo...bt who cares,the installing,unsinstalling and reinstalling saga still continues.....

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

The mystery of the missing pendrive...

no,this is no detective story.dis is the reason y i was unavailable 2 update my blog yesterday,as i was searching 4 a pendrive....
yes,a pendrive is missing...n the best part is its nt even my pendrive...its a borrowed one which has been wid me 4 the past 10 months...the owner of the pendrive 4got abt it as well as us...a phone call in the morning last month forced me to retrieve the pendrive frm the depths of my already untamed cupboard,n deposit it in the car,as the owner of the pendrive wud reclaim it frm my husband on his way 2 the office...bt again,memory loss struck the owner n it was wid us again,bt dis time safely in the car..now whn the owner has again regained his memory n has started askin 4 his pendrive bac again,it has disappeared right in2 the oblivion...n as i was the last one 2 touch it,by the law of human nature i 'm blamed the culprit...dis time memory loss has struck me n i 'm completely clueless abt it...a 250 mb pendrive can easily be brought...bt wht puzzles me is the disappearence of the pendrive excatly at the time when the owner wanted it bac...well i guess dis might be a version of the murphy's law...u want it,u dnt get it...u search 4 it,u wnt find it...whtevr,the truth remains tht the pendrive is missing n the mystery continues.....
n i m still searchin 4 the lost pendrive....

Sunday, January 4, 2009




ciao folks!!!

november rain......

its raining outside...well tht kinda helps me in lifting my spirit up...rain had always cheered me up...n brought back good memories....like the time we all used 2 have bath in the rain whn we were kids...even n2day...i dnt mind bathin in the rain...bt social n moral obligationg forbid me to do so....
speaking of rain...even my fave song has a rainy touch...november rain.....rainy....romantic ...mystic n a lost love...thts wht november rains 4 me...i fall for all thses long lost love n sentimental stuff...mayb i was a victim of a broken heart in my previous birth....:D

WHATEVER...GNR ROCKS!!!..so does november rain....u hear it once..n the music will continue to haunt u...4ever....

N PEOPLE...IF U HAVENT HEARD NOVEMBER RAIN,HERES HOW THE LYRICS GO...

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain


Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

(lyrics courtsey:www.lyrics007.com)

The song is dark,moody and cloudy...n it moves me to some place n age i dnt know...the mystery behind it which is still unrevealed.....dnt wnt to kno whts it...would like 2 b in this trance while hearing it always....for i think thts wht makes the song so special to me......
i was not in that a good mood today...bt i had found out loong back that writing is a way to give vent 2 my frustrations...so i chose to write today...n disperse my tensions n be happy..well the foul mood was caused by the story i heard frm smbody...bt it made me feel so angry and helpless..hierarchy is necessary in any institution...bt he syaytem of hierarchy shud yeild 2 democracy...it should nt be a ply of monarchy or monopoly...all these are indirect statements aimed at a particular human being,who is the hod of a certain dept n a professor undrneath him...the gangwar between these two have been going on for soo loong,tht it is the students who r made to suffer for threir silly ego clashes....well i guess all dis happens in life...bt wht irritates me the most is tha twe rnt able to respond even whn we r given the ability to...like me for eg...who is using pseudonames in dis post...smtimes i feel...Y OH GOD!!!!Y????

?????

a bright and colourful future...great name n fame...thts wht they promised us...bt as the course is about to end...they r leaving us in great pits of deaparation n frustration...well...i was jus a part in the begining of dis story...i bcame a fall out in between...now the characters left are my friends...some people very near and dear...cant afford to c thm like this...they say whtever happens happens for the best....big bloody crap...thats what i think of these wise statements...how can things happen for good to someone while at the same time prove to be destructive and harmful for someone...is this some kind of human equation where the LHS n RHS are chosen at random...mayb i m nt tht wise...bt i guess i m reactive n sensible...n i m angry ..very angry!!!!

Friday, January 2, 2009

THE GHAJINI EFFECT...


jus bac frm watching ghajini...my first xperience at a movie theatre over here...well not only mine bt almost every1 in our gang was a first timer leaving alone my husband and his frnd..it was an old house turned theatre...wid dolby effect n all...n man was the theatre crowded...the queue was practically nonexistent...it was like the stronger man will win types ...finally my husband managed 2 get the tickets...we were shown a special corner of the theatre as there were ladies in our grp...hmmm...thankx 2 us the guys also got a good seating place..:D...the movie was good...well asin looked really good...n her energy n charisma was undeniable...aamir khan as usual was his perfectionist self...bt in my opinion the camera shudnt span dis close 2 him..well afterall hes a 1975 born in the movie...its exposure way thruout..this time 4 a change the female is pretty clad...its the herooo who does the body show..well,its a body worth watching...:)...n the movie is a good timepass,bt i felt the villian was kinda frm the old times..with his white shoes,gold accesories n his stupid accent...southern or bihari...well nothings perfect,...so is ghajini..bt its sure worth a watch..by the way,the short term memory stuff turned out pretty smtimes...i wondered wht wud have happened if i get a medical condition like tht...i guess the best part 'll b i 'll b exempted frm my kitchen duties...like the one i shud be doin now,while i 'm writin this blog..well thn i guess i will 4get the topic of my blog halfway also...hmmm...well i m happy the way i m...n thnankx god,u made me fall in the privileged lott!!!

Thursday, January 1, 2009

the first day of the new year.....

end of day 1 of 2009...well it was a quiet,sluggish lazy day...woke up wid a terrible headache...thanks to yesterday nite's party...headache continued till afternoon...slept again after preparin lunch...woke up whn hus came,he didnt come alone...brought along headche too...another victim of party hangover...had lunch 4 namesake...slept ate in2 the evening...got up in a rather passive mood....well thn the usual routine...dinner,watch my daily dose of soap n hit the sack...well tht was t 01/01/09 4 me...an absolutely boring start 2 the newyr...hope this yr wnt b filled wid headaches and meager lunches 4 me!!

WELCOME 2009